This was the weekend we were going to have a bowling fundraiser (his whole unit was having it for us) for our daughter, followed by my birthday next weekend accompanied with a little trip to "escape our lives" for 4 days, a baby shower to follow mid September, and then the big moment was right around the corner!
Instead, we have no fundraiser to hold, we are not going on our trip because we need to save money for money we lost, and there is
definitely no shower or big moment around the corner. Chad had 4 days off over my birthday but now he is going to work instead. I thank God that he is working and the military is giving him extra days, but I am alone in my home starting at an empty
nursery and missing my husband. Chad has pretty much worked everyday since Amy came into our lives with the exception of Saturdays when we went to see her. I am not embellishing at all ... he has worked pretty much 4 months straight. I know he is partially doing it to keep his mind off of things.
Waiting is
sooo hard. It was hard before Amy, but now that I saw and felt a baby move, the waiting is worse. I just want a family ...